Yes, I've been busy with a newborn and homeschooling my other two little ones, but that is not the real reason I've not been blogging here or on BiblicalWomanhood.com. The truth is, I've been quietly seeking the Lord regarding my involvement in the blogosphere.
For a few months, I've felt a tugging in my heart that something needed to change concerning my blogs. At first, I thought perhaps it was just the need to pull back from blogging. However, after pulling back, I still felt unrest in my heart.
So after Silas was born, I took a few weeks off to seek the Lord's direction. After much discussion with my husband, much thought and prayer, and asking other wise counselors for input, I came to a peace two weeks ago that it was time to shut both of my personal blogs down.
This decision was not come to lightly, but I truly feel it is God's will for this season of my life. Shannon's post sums up much of why I'm leaving the blogosphere. Especially this:
"...one of the most convicting realizations I've come to is that blogging may just fuel in us (and by "us", of course, I mean "me") a need to articulate everything. I wonder sometimes if our culture is veering away from the very fine art of simply keeping some things to ourselves. Sometimes the best words are the ones we don't say."While I have loved blogging for the past four years, I now feel God calling me to a season of quietness. As my little ones are growing older, I want to be able to teach them, nurture them, and love them without feeling the need to blog about everything we're reading, learning, or doing.
In addition, as my readership has grown, it has been increasingly difficult for me to find the balance between what I should and shouldn't share in a public forum. There are many readers from differing beliefs and backgrounds here and most of my posts--no matter the topic--receive scrutiny and criticism. Composing posts has become much more time-consuming as I don't want to purposefully offend or communicate in a way which is misunderstood.
I'm finding I just do not have the time I once had to carefully construct substantial posts and having our parenting decisions and personal beliefs constantly criticized is wearing me down and stealing my joy. I'd rather just focus on quietly loving the Lord and loving my family.
I've also seen a dangerous epidemic taking place in the blogosphere of women seeking to emulate other bloggers they read instead of seeking to follow Christ. It has concerned me to sense a growing number of women looking to me for counsel when instead they should be going to the Lord, their husbands, or wise older women.
The longer I live, the more I'm learning just how little I know. Someday, Lord-willing, I'll be able to teach younger women in the spirit of Titus 2, but for now, this is the season for me to quietly live, learn, and practice that which I believe.
Blogging has been a wonderful experience. I've learned so much, grown so much, and been blessed to have the opportunity to get to know so many of you. Thank you for the prayers you've prayed, the emails you've written, and the comments you've left. My life is forever richer because of you all.
May the Lord bless you and keep you as you continue to seek His face! I look forward to meeting you in Heaven, if not before!
Soli Deo Gloria!
Note: While I'll not be blogging here or on Biblical Womanhood anymore, I'm not entirely leaving the online world. I'll still be sharing little snippets of our life and occasional pictures on my Facebook account as I'm able so you're welcome to add me as a friend there. And I'll likely post a few pictures or glimpses into our life on MoneySavingMom every now and then, too.
